everything came off too soon, really too soon that i couldn't even have the courage to accept it. as it says: time is the only healer. but i don't wanna let go. cause i know i can't and i don't even want. it seems impossible, really impossible. i may seem strong in the outside but im not in the inside. i never regretted the decision made, never ever. i don't even know what i can do now. letting go? no way i hope. i'll fight through. but the only fear i have is i couldn't take the turtore in the heart. i couldn't take it. )':