chapter the fourteen,
panic.
Sunday, October 31, 2010 @ 9:21 PM

my actions told myself i still do cared, more than i should. damn it much, once again. i told myself i shouldn't bother much already. (note to myself: don't bother so much, lingting.)
damn
Friday, October 29, 2010 @ 9:22 PM

shit why wasn't this gonna go in plan, damn it, much. hm, i realized you become small in the heart of mine. It's capacity should be containing much lesser things about you and it really did. I wondered why sometimes. I thought i wasn't able to make it but your concern wasn't in much bother, that much anymore. wasn't that great for me? hm if i told you i no longer love you, for are you gonna get a little bothered for awhile? for i hasn't told you that ever, before.
yeah man
Wednesday, October 27, 2010 @ 9:31 PM

nah you shouldn't be giving me even that slightest hope anymore because i'm not gonna bother. i've woken up. i've had enough. i've been through this, hard enough already. for i'm not gonna be that silly anymore, all thanks to you, i've become stronger than you thought i wasn't.
woke.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010 @ 9:54 PM

if i were happier like this, i guess i should just continue with what i should do.
but not dwell over again, for it's blocking my entrance of happiness.
much agony has finally made me woke up from my dreams and useless hopes.
dreaming out of something that isn't gonna worked doesn't help.
i'm much happier, like how i do now.
leave me for three days and i'll work it out for you.
be happy, for me.
Monday, October 18, 2010 @ 8:43 PM

i love math and i hate chinese fullstop haha :-)
happiest
Friday, October 15, 2010 @ 10:31 AM



happiness:

1. finding your musical soulmates.
2. when he smiles @ you.
3. spinning around in the rain.
4. unexpected texts.
5. finding something you thought you'd lost.
6. winning an argument.
7. getting letters in the mail.
8. noticing something you never had.
9. slipping a new pair of shoes.
10. cheering someone up.
11. knowing that everything will be okay.
moment.
Thursday, October 14, 2010 @ 9:03 PM

you can fly over mountains rainbows beautiful clear blue sky clouds rain because 'yes exams are over!' you can eat like tons now kit-kat kinder bueno chicken rice noodles ice-cream lollipops i wanna eat but i feel fat. anyway i totally flunk science and math paper :/
i'm so unlucky today:
1. i woke up, w/o a good mood.
2. i still feel like sleeping in the bright morning, even though i slept from 7.45pm till 6am.
3. i flunk my math paper two.
4. i broke my house's glass bowl.

child's eye: great but not scary, for me. *wink
humanity.
Saturday, October 9, 2010 @ 3:28 PM

humans are like this:
1. wanting more and more when actually they should be satisfied.
2. start regretting and start treasuring, when you've lost them.
3. realize how good one is, when they're gone.
4. wanting to be better to the ones that are gone, but it's too late.
5. giving a fake smile even though you're so sad inside.
6. saying this and doing that.
7. promised and broke it.
8. thought had given up, but hasn't.
9. made a choice, but regretted in the end.
10. wanted to do something really badly, but in the end, giving up.