chapter the fourteen,
Give me the life i want, please.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010 @ 10:46 PM


what i really miss about myself:

  1. I miss how i always smile.
  2. I miss how cheerful i once used to be
  3. I miss how everything is like a happy-go-lucky thing.
  4. I miss how everyone said i was a cheerful lil'girl.
  5. I miss how i never cried for a long time.
  6. I miss how i was so carefree that i've nothing to worry about.
  7. I miss how i don't know many things.
  8. I miss how happy i used to be, in 2009.
  9. I miss old self, i really do.

Lastly, i think what i miss most about myself is: having nothing to worry about.
2011, i just wanna be happy, like i used to be.
@ 10:32 PM


If you're looking at this, i'm here to thankyou for everything you've done, really.
Thankyou for being so good to me, taking care of me.
Thankyou for making me experience what i never had.
Thankyou for being thr for me, when i really need someone's listening ear.
Thankyou for making me laugh and smile.
Thankyou for listening to my stupid complains.
Thankyou for cheering me up when i'm really down.
Thankyou for entertaining me when i'm super bored.
Thankyou for accompanying me to places and going out tgt.
Thankyou for your night calls for almost every night.
Thankyou for 'coming' into my life.
Thankyou for making many places one of my memories. (school, library, causeway, admiratly blocks, basketball court, cinemas, arcades, bishan & blablabla)
Thank God for how we get to know each other. (i know it's really stupid!!)
Lastly, i know you always let me, thankyouverymuch.
I've many things to thank you though, but now my mind is like stuck.
I've done wad i need to do, wad i wanna do, i've been through enough and let's just hope 2011 wld be cool. :-) memories are all left with memories, i kept what u gave me, so did you. maybe i'll look at it or even give a hug to it, b'c sometimes looking back makes me smile.
game over
Sunday, December 26, 2010 @ 8:58 PM

(make my hopes go 'game over' tonight, please.)

school's starting soon, i swear i fear secondary three's life. :'( it's gonna be hardcore studying like srsly. it's like even more important than secondary four b'c secondary four is almost all revisions. argh i hope i could cope with studies man. hm, let's push studies away and talk about.. holidays. ok i have nothing to talk about holidays, i left only one week!! i need to buy pencil box, notebook? :-)

celebrates the season of joy.
Saturday, December 25, 2010 @ 9:49 PM


(christmas: giving, generous, love one another)

Hello guys' merry x'mas! just went ard looking for christmas photos and i found this cute lil' crazy spongebob dancing with some candy background and snow. hm, on christmas eve i went out with cool classmates to amk hub for movie gulliver's travel, exchange presents and went for church @ school. everything was like wow great. on christmas, went to k's house for a pot luck. played super many games and stuffs ok i enjoyed my christmas this year! :-))))) aw, y must it rain tonight! :/
today was a fairytale.
Thursday, December 23, 2010 @ 8:12 PM

(how do you feel today?)
(i felt like the whole world is smiling at me actually.)
(but suddenly my mood turned)

heh but now i'm fine agn! :D hm, anyway i woke up like really early today to work @ school to sell uniforms. hm, i worked from around seven plus night till around eleven plus twelve and i earned myself thirty bucks omg kachinggggggg $.$ ha ha, actually it's not tough @ all, all i do is count money, measure their sizes and get their uniforms and stuffs. anyway, it's gonna be christmas anyone excited? :-) movie>church (celebrate advance x'mas tomorrow!) yes i've a happy and wonderful life! 
sometimes.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010 @ 2:51 PM

  • sometimes you have to run away so you can see who will run after you.
  • sometimes you have to speak softer, just to see who's actually listening.
  • sometimes you have to take a step back, to see who's still standing by ur side.
  • sometimes you have to make a wrong decision, to see who's thr when everything falls apart.
  • sometimes you have to let go of the one you love, just to see if they love you enough to come back.
start learning upon everything.
@ 2:07 PM

(I'll answer, all those happy memories we had tgt)

camp was cool i've learned plenty, i've learnt to help others w/o expecting any repay, not even a simple thankyou. we're all blessed lil' kids out here whr we have our basic necessary food, clothings and even computers whr you can see my post here ha. so we shall not complain about life anymore b'c thr's even more unfortunate kids out thr that needs even more attention to. so humans out here we're really blessed and fortunate! life's too short for us to complain about small lil things i guess im starting to learn that soon, hopefully.
ages
Thursday, December 16, 2010 @ 12:03 PM

(The joy the smile the innocence when we're all still small lil'kids)

whr has it all went to? as we aged we worry for small lil' things that aren't that important. as time goes on you realize it aren't necessary to do that and sometimes we don't bother anymore :')
knew everything.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010 @ 3:27 PM

(if you knew what's on my mind, if you knew what's on my heart, if you knew......)

yes yes i'm going off to camp from friday till monday. Ha. finally i'm not bored stuck @ home like srsly doing nothing except for waking up eating breakfast playing some stupid games watching tv sleeping and eating agn or wadever. hm, i sometimes hope school doesn't reopen but sometimes i do. i'm a werido girlz kbyeseeu. ;)
It takes a lot of time to realize.
Friday, December 10, 2010 @ 11:23 PM

I've srsly been thinking what you've been thinking all along. You say this but you prove another. Srsly I don't get you. I told you about this certain thing and u acted like you're mine. I dont get it anymore nvm I'm not caring I care I hope I wish ok byebye. For another thing I hope u text me real soon.
Sometimes its better when you don't care.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010 @ 2:50 PM

Everything seems normal but sometimes I hated it when I've to really think and wonder what you've been feeling all along. Maybe I don't even know what I've been wondering.
(Am I just too stubborn or I just hasnt really realize?)
A break.
Friday, December 3, 2010 @ 10:09 PM

Going off to genting from sat till Monday so I won't be testing anyone nor replying.
Have u realize anything?